I’m competitive. I grew up in a household that taught me that from a very young age. My grandma would kick our butts in card games with no shame at the young age of 4, earlier if we knew what we were even doing! Needless to say, when I started running, that competitive spirit stayed strong, except instead of competing against others, I started competing with myself. One day, I went for a shorter run and my watch died. This was like the absolute worst thing that could have happened to me; I know some of you can relate! I could no longer keep track of my pace. I got frustrated, defeated, and basically began to think the run was a complete waste. About 3/4ths of the way through, I realized I’d almost allowed my pace to tell me my worth. But running should never be about that. It’s about going out and getting it done, whether I’m fast or slow doesn’t matter, it’s the fact that I got up and did something hard. My worth can, and should, only come through who I am in Christ. I almost allowed something as small as my pace get too much say in my life. I still keep track of my runs and would probably get super annoyed if my watch died on me again, but I know no matter what time I get, or don’t get, I can walk away proud of myself for doing something hard. Doing something I know God has given me the gift to do without any strings attached. There’s nothing wrong with being competitive and wanting to be better, just be cautious you don’t attach your worth to your accomplishments or failures. You are worth so much more than something so fleeting.
“What is the value of your soul to God? Could your worth be defined by an amount of money? God doesn’t abandon or forget even the small sparrow he has made. How then could he forget or abandon you? What about the seemingly minor issues of your life? Do they matter to God? Of course they do! So you never need to worry, for you are more valuable to God than anything else in this world.”
Luke 12:6-7 TPT